March 20, 2009

I am going through a gamete of emotion right now. Can I do this? Am I certifiably crazy for even thinking to ask for a home study? Will I be good at parenting a stranger between the ages of 8-12? I feel silly thinking about steps x,y,z when step "c" isn't even reality yet! How do I proceed without thinking of EVERYTHING? What kind of parent am I? How would I set the rules, limits, and lines to be drawn? How will my child see the need to respect my rules, ideas and non-negotiable ways of life?

I spoke with a couple, who are in the Colombian process as I type. We had a great conversation. I point blank asked them everything. They assured me that the background given was accurate and the kids come here with a huge support group. They keep an eye out for us and for the kids. The Colombian government doesn't want this to fail. So... they take this program seriously.

We spoke about some other issues which I won't blog about. Sometimes people just say what you know is true in your heart, but you can't hear your heart until someone turns up the volume for you. I'm so happy I called them! Good move!