wake up= 10am.
Went swimming with Josh in Wilson. We had a nice time in the pool. After swimming the day went downhill fast! I think the honeymoon phase is OVER! I guess I suck for not being an MTV cribs mom or something...
My feelings are totally hurt. There's no way I'm taking this behavior from him. NO WAY JOSE!
In my heart I want to cancel Fantasy Island tomorrow. I can't deal with my parents and him if he continues acting like this. I feel so much stress right now...
Ok... here's what I'm thinking...
A... He thinks he's on a vacation here and nothing else.
B... He wants more than what I can offer... ex) today he told me that I have a small house.
C... He's being lazy. Doesn't want to walk, talk, be nice, doesn't like to study. Has no hopes, dreams, desires... maybe this is a culture background thing that I am taking the wrong way.??? What ever it is... I hate it.
D... Can I do this alone, effectively? I saw a host dad interact with his son today. I also saw Andres watching the two of them. I saw a little sadness, resentment, something new on his face. Maybe he needs a Dad too. Maybe I can't compete with all of these people. Maybe I can't offer enough...
E... I need to chill and stop stressing.
OMG...what a day.
bedtime= 8:40pm.
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